a diary note…

What is my resistance around journaling?

Why do I feel like I need to clench my jaw, tighten my chest and carry the weight of the world on my shoulders?

I am allowed to hand it over. I am allowed to live freely. I am allowed to trust in the Universe fully. I am allowed to believe that I am supported without evidence of my desires aligning in front of me.

My inner subconscious desire to breathe happens without me even thinking so why can’t I trust that everything else is happening without me need to think or interrupt the process.

God is good.

The Universe is good.

Source/Creator is good.

Christ Consciousness is good.

I am good.

As I write this, I can’t help but stare at a picture of my grandma. A solo picture of her in black and white. On the shelf below is a solo picture of me, in bright blue colours, under a bright blue sky; like the colour of the Throat Chakra. The Throat Chakra is communication, self-expression, being heard, seen and validated for who you are and allowing others to do the same. It has a deep attachment to the Sacral Chakra which is the Mother Wound, Father Wound, Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine energies.

I feel her presence all the time. I feel her protection and guidance.

The feminine pull of energy has been strong the past 3 months. Many wounds surrounding generational trauma and the Mother/Father Wounds have been unearthed for our Collective as we continue to move into the New Earth.

I asked my grandma what she needed me to know in this moment and she said, go do it. Go do all of it.

My subconscious mind has tried to trick me into stopping many times this year. I have also been so resistant to journaling this year and now I think I know why… The answers I seek are being written from the angelic connections in my Heart Space.

The truth is always within me, within all of us.

Society wants us to doubt our magic. They want us to doubt our power.

Visibility (throat chakra energy) is not for the weak.

To be seen and heard is to shine in all your power.

My grandma would want me to shine for all to see, regardless of who’s feathers it ruffled.

The power is in how much truth I allow myself to acknowledge without collapsing under it.

Hold steady through this portal, friend. Do not resist the call to empowerment. Do not let your Ego keep you small. Your truth deserves to be witnessed, whatever that means for you.

4:56 on the clock as I close this out… 456, forward movement.

xx

tabula